Its been so long since i posted something here on my blogger and posting now makes me feel like its the first time all over again. I can't believe i've had this blog for Four years already.

SEEK THE LORD. BE HUMBLE. FOLLOW HIS COMMANDS. AND HE SHALL PROTECT YOU.

SEEK THE LORD. BE HUMBLE. FOLLOW HIS COMMANDS. AND HE SHALL PROTECT YOU.

So today my friend KAT and i started our day with an early morning devotion at boardwalk, while the rays of the beautiful sun strike our skin we talked about the scripture  zephaniah 2:3 which says:

Seek the Lord, all who are humble, and follow his commands
Seek to do what is right, and to live humbly.”

So with this scripture we stumbled upon a lot of thoughts. But more on thoughts about spiritual weakness. For many times , my relationship with God has gone up and gone down, went hot and went cold, and frustration about my weak times comes into me everytime like, “i dont want to be weak God, i dont want to hurt you, i want you but im stuck in my weakness and sin”. I always thought that my point of weakness hurts God, but then this morning kat and i talked about that, the question is ” How does God feel , or what does He think about when we are weak”? And of course i understand that relationships have its hard times, but i feel like “God i dont want to have so many hard times and rocky roads, is my weakness with a purpose ? or is it the work of the enemy? or what have i done wrong? what should i do?”

And perhaps that verse in Zephaniah doesn’t really talk about weakness but then that verse was the one that spoke to me. I figured out that our goal as children of God is to seek him and follow him and seeking Him shall keep us strong in faith and in love. And that thought led us to another question ” how do you seek God?”

As Christians we have ” set ” ways to seek God, like through praying, devotion, and worship. And all these are good, yet all these would be in vain if we do not acknowledge the holy spirit before we pray , and worship, because the Holy spirit would be the one that would guide us while we are here on earth and if we do not invite the holy spirit or if we’re not familiar with its presence we might be missing out on what true prayer, devotion and worship is. And most of all these things must come out from a heart that is sincere, a heart that is hungry, a heart that longs for God.

Did you know that amongst all the prophets and great men in the bible King David was the only one that was called ” a man after God’s own heart ” ? Isn’t beautiful to be called a man after His heart? Hmm, i think i want that too. But see here if you read the bible, David committed adultery and did a lot of wrong things, but then again HE IS THE MAN AFTER GOD’S OWN HEART. Wouldn’t it be more  appropriate if it would be someone else, because David has been sinful. But then again NO. If you read psalms you’ll see that David has been honest and very transparent towards GOD, he brought Him all his cares, sins , impurities and praises, he surrendered all his life in worship and adoration to GOD, HE SOUGHT GOD. He was called a man after God’s heart because he lived a life dedicated to worship and praise GOD.

David is a perfect example for us all, He spent quiet times with God, He trusted God , He loved God, and HE was Loved, Protected and Lifted because he sought God. Although he sinned, like most of us, He brought His sins to GOD, He humbled Himself and Followed GOD. 

We must always remember David, and Zephaniah 2:3. We must strive to be after God, worship Him 24/7 with a life that is pleasing unto GOD. AND IF YOU SEEK GOD you’ll get stronger, feed yourself with positive thoughts and good thoughts like the bible says in Philipians 4:8:

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

Do not believe the lies of the enemy, when you are weak GOD is still strong!

ITS BEEN A WONDERFUL DAY. I AM BLESSED.MAY GOD BLESS YOU TOO.

p.s. HE LOVES YOU :)

Zephaniah 2:3

Seek the Lord, all who are humble, and follow his commands
Seek to what is right, and to live humbly.

early morning devotion

so this saturday morning me and my friend clariz woke up early, to have our saturday devotion near the shore.
this is me, writing my savior's name. JESUS!

this is my friend clariz, we are determined to leave something on the shore, for people to see. because JESUS is alive
HE is the answer.

clariz writing " JESUS SAVES"

JESUS IS THE WAY!! THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE

JOHN 1: 4 In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind.

self timer mode on.

JUST PRAISE YOU FOREVER.

dream life

a camera. a happy dress. a long windy bus ride. a notebook. a cup of coffe. and a smile.

Sunset has never been this beautiful, i grasp every bit of the moment and close my eyes and wish i could stay there forever , gazing beauty at its perfection. I open my eyes and feel the cool warm breeze brush my cheeks and give me the chills that i will never feel again in my short lifetime. i immortalize each second by capturing it with a camera. And as time pass me by, i write my thoughts on my brown notebook. I feel happy with my happy dress, i feel satisfied. I travel the world , and feed my eyes with its beauty.

A dream life. That’s how i call it, that’s how i wanted it to be. A simple , happy and satisfying life. A life full of colors, smiles, and warmth. Its so easy to wish it was all true, it so easy to let your mind imagine these things, but its so hard to achieve. I never asked for something more than this, i dont need expensive things, and i dont need everything the world offers. I just want peace on a monday afternoon, a smile on a tuesday morning, joy on a wednesday night, love over a thursday lunch, and sleep on a friday night. And the weekends may stand still. that’s all i wanted, life at its simplest form. 

But life is not easy, its unfair, you could always fight but somehow life would always find a way to beat you, and you get up and lose, get up and lose, get up and still lose. But at the very end i believe that you could beat it, you could let go but you’ll win. And i wonder how long i would have to wait to win, i wonder how many faces i will see before i win, i wonder how many sleepless hours must pass before Life could finally be fair to me. 

And yes, LIFE is UNFAIR, it is unfair to your mother, father, brother, sister and friends. And life is unfair to me. And there are moments in my life , when i get so tired of fighting back, i am tired of running faster, i am tired of living the way i am living. And when exhaustion consumes me, i wish i could have another life, a brand new one, and this life would end without completion, cause i dare try to go around in circles.

Life for me is wonderful. Yes despite the fact that it is hard, still its wonderful.

Life is something we should take care of. Because no matter how hard you ask for another life, in another place, with another set of people, YOU JUST WONT GET IT. Because you only have one life, and many challenges to overcome. But sometimes when you are down, it feels so good to quit, it feels like its the right thing to do, to QUIT. And all my life i quit on many trials, and after quitting i felt bad, because after all its not the right thing to do.

I could search for everything, i could achieve my dream life, i could get it someday. But emptiness would still eat me. Torturing me, because all i wanted wont complete me. And JESUS would complete me. And i left Jesus, i turned my back, i thought i could survive, but i couldn’t. I dont have life without Him.

And now my life is so far away from how i wanted it to be. I am living a dry life.  an empty life.

only one would stay

The truth is everybody is going to leave you someday. You would leave them someday. and Only one would stay.

I’ve had so many lessons in my life, but the fact that ” no one would ever be there always ” gave a huge impact in my life. It bumped my head, and shook my heart. Because there have been times when i always thought a certain person would always be around me, that whenever i look by my side i’ll see her face and whenever everything is crashing down on me she would hold me together. But no, no one could do that, only JESUS would put us through. The fact that a person who almost knew everything about you could hurt and leave you was a painful realization. She was a one of those  very few people that i let in the gates of my heart, but she got out, she got out without even realizing it, i tried to chase her, but she’s so far away now, i don’t even know her anymore.

And i cried, and i cried, we dreamed of going to college together and do what we love, but we lost those dreams, we lost each other. And she went away without leaving a single piece for me, she took it all away.

And she’s one of those many people who went away. 

But realize the truth that some could be with you forever, but there would be a time when you’d have to go solo, a solo journey with Jesus. Because He is the only one constant in our lives. So stop expecting too much from people, because you could run to them but they will not always embrace you, but Jesus is craving to hug you , to make you feel loved, the only thing you need to do is to run into His mighty arms and throw your life in His hands.

HE NEVER CHANGES. PEOPLE CHANGE.

HE NEVER LEFT. PEOPLE GO.

November 6, 9:18AM (1 week ago)

i am a masterpiece.

And oh !those little painful words strike my soul ten times more painful than real knives stabbed in my body. 

WORDS. WORDS. the words they spoke led my life, when it should’ve not.

I think people around me always thought that im good for nothing at all, not pretty, not talented and do not deserve anyone or anything. They make me feel that way everytime they put on jokes that are really not jokes because for them deep inside its a truth. But its a lie.Because all of us are created uniquely beautiful, talented and just wonderful. A master created us, we are His masterpiece, we are special and loved.

But i do understand that sometimes its hard to focus on the truth when everyone maybe even yourselves tell you a lie. I’ve been there, i was so mad about my situation and i ask God ” God why do people have to put me down, and make me feel low, am i not good enough?” and of course the struggle to build up my self esteem doesn’t end in asking. See here, since i entered school when i was five, every kid would mock and tell me how ugly my dress is, how ugly my face is and just how ugly i am. But then i knew something that would protect me, i put up an image. The image of a strong brave girl who you wont dare to mess with, an image of a rugged lady, a boyish one and a careless one.

And sure enough, i felt like no one could breakthrough my walls and no one would know how fragile i could be. i experienced less mocking that time. But then high school came. When i entered high school i thought everything was bound to change and i could be the girl who i want to be, the beautiful, careful and happy one. But nothing changed, i found myself trapped in the walls i built. I found it hard to be a lady, and up to now, i dont know if i’ll ever be one. Its a struggle.

But i believe that when i reach out to my master, He’ll utter beautiful words that could paint a smile on my face forever. Because my master, thinks im so special, my master placed me in the best frame in His gallery,my master dreams of me, my master spends all His time looking at my beauty, my master put spot lights on me,and my master even put a security system so whenever the viewers go near me the alarm would go off and He would save me.

And when i think of my master, my heart jumps for joy! Because He created me, a beautiful MASTERPIECE.

Dont let the words they speak lead you and change the direction of your life, that happened to me and its so hard to be back on the right point of view, sometimes those negative thoughts consume me. But whenever that happens i try to always LOOK up to the great one who CREATED me.

So when you’re feeling down think of GOD, who would offer and sacrifice anything just to save you. BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU.

November 5, 7:01AM (1 week ago)

when you fall, you could always get up.

Yes im imperfect! We are all imperfect.

I have done tooo many mistakes in my life. Sure you have done too. But that doesn’t mean that God loves us less , just because we make mistakes, His love for us will never ever change. When you accept Jesus as your savior don’t expect that tomorrow or in any other time you wont sin anymore, don’t expect that everything you will be doing is right. Why? because everyone falls, everyone is tempted and everyone experiences bad times, tough trials, and sadness. But behind this fact is a truth that will never change, WE COULD ALWAYS GET UP WHEN WE FALL. WE COULD ALWAYS CONFESS OUR SINS TO GOD AND RECEIVE FORGIVENESS. BECAUSE HE LOVES US.

Could you just imagine how great that kind of love is? amazing.

As a teenager, i can’t help to try many things, to be adventurous and just explore the world, and with that comes temptation. Some times we fail to keep in mind that what we are doing is wrong just because the people who surrounds us does it too, so therefore it doesn’t feel wrong. But i know that’s the challenge. And when you’re in a challenge, who wants to quit ?? so if you fail, always remember that you could always move forward and learn from the mistakes.

LIFE IS SHORT.

BUT HIS LOVE ENDURES FOREVER.

we need to have general check ups on our souls and hearts.

October 30, 3:29AM (2 weeks ago)

friends

Last night me and my other three buddies went to the mardigras to just walk and view shows and etc. But the fact is we went there so early and i went to church at around 7 pm. See here, we’re not the type of kids who stays up all night partying, we’re the ones who go home early, who drinks coke, and satisfied by just being there. Im not saying this to say how clean we live our lives, but i say this because i want you to get a glimpse of our contentment without the need to go wild and to do the harsh and awful things. We are satisfied like children who walks in the park singing “la la la la ” that’s who we are, and though some may think its not cool or that the type of life we lead is boring, well it’s not. But im not saying this either to put down those teenagers who goes to parties and goes home in the morning, i just want to lay down my side of life.

Well then, so before i go to church, we ate a very small amount of food , too bad it was expensive enough to buy us McDonald meals, the portion they gave to us was so little. anyways. here are some pictures.

claudette, sho and me.

sho, clariz and of course me.

coke.

October 30, 3:13AM (2 weeks ago)

who do you please?

FRIENDS.PARENTS.TEACHERS.BROTHER.SISTER. JUST THINK OF EVERYONE WHO SURROUNDS YOU. AND THINK ABOUT GOD. Who do you please?

Some people get carried away too much, just going with the flow and they don’t think twice of being set apart for GOD. They do, what their friends do so that they could keep them. But as a Christian we should always keep in our hearts that we live to PLEASE GOD to honor him, and to make Him happy. So would you tolerate the wrong things that people ask you to do? 

Would you do as the world says? If it makes you unfashionable, un cool, lonely or a freak just to do the right thing then let it be. After all, God doesn’t want us to be of this WORLD but HE wants us to set apart ourselves and LIVE FOR HIM! 

So many times i’ve been tempted, temptation is rampant everywhere, in music, in movies, in clothes, in the internet, in the books, in the words your friend speaks, and in the actions others do. And i sinned so many times, because i want to belong with my friends, i want to go with the flow, i want to blend in, to do what they say is cool and im gonna tell you after all everything they said was cool was totally not cool.

On the other hand, some focus on pleasing their parents,or other authorities above them. Its not wrong to obey the authority but sometimes we tend to forget that we must obey because we want to do it for GOD, and sometimes even if it’s wrong it seems right because your parents or your teacher told it was. 

so be careful with what you do, are you doing it for GOD or for PEOPLE?

Let’s check ourselves,maybe we’re doing something wrong. after all you cannot please everybody, you could do all the good things towards the people around you but not all of them would like you. SO LIVE BY PLEASING GOD.

:)

October 27, 7:52AM (2 weeks ago)

purpose

  -the reason for which something exists or is done, made, used,etc.(http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/purpose)

I’ve been in existence for sixteen years, and i grew up knowing that every little or big thing that happens has a purpose. And i myself is here one earth on purpose.

Was there any moment in your life that you thought you were living for nothing at all,or that you exist just because you were conceived by your mother? Well , sometimes when depression strikes you just can’t see through everything. You don’t know why you are hurting, you don’t know why you are lost and you don’t know why you are going through a hard battle. But one thing’s for sure everything you’re experiencing has a purpose, a purpose for you to seek something beyond yourself , to seek TRUE LOVE , to seek the only one who can HEAL your heart. JESUS.

The hard battles and sad times are not the only ones with purpose. Happy times and victories has its purpose too. Victories are for GOD, for everything is for HIS GLORY. And you experience happiness because of GOD.

talk to GOD.

ask HIM your purpose.

love your neighbors as much as you love yourself

Have you ever experienced knowing someone you just cannot like and you get irritated with whatever she/he does? Well I went through that kind of feeling. I know that that person is not doing anything totally wrong towards me, but i think i just dont liker her attitude. And for so many times i’ve been so rude towards that person, yet she still considers me as a friend. She tells me her deepest secrets, when i completely do not deserve any of them because im not good towards her.

I talked to her many many times about that and every time i’ll ask her if she wants to say anything or if she have any hurts because of me, she’ll say ” i dont have any, i understand you ” and i was like you’re just TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE. And i hated that moment when she got nothing to say about me, i felt guilty of it all. I felt like, I AM CAUSING YOU SO MUCH PAIN AND HURT yet still you value me and say you understand me?? 

Yesterday i got to talk with my other friend about that and we arrived in the conclusion thatMAYBE JUST MAYBE THE LOVE SHE HAS FOR ME IS JUST ENDURING. Enduring all the hurts just to keep me as a friend. And i realize that it might be true. And my friend told me that GOD has been speaking to her about that person and she said ” i know she needs our help”

AND then the light bulb went on! YES, she needs our help, she need GOD in her life. Once i have invited that person in church and there was a moment when the people who needs prayer were asked to come forward she told me ” trish i want to come” then i joined her and prayed for her. I know she’s going through a lot of problems concerning family and other things and as a Christian my role is to accept her for what she is and help her go through those problems and just ask GOD to give me the kind of love that could overcome the negative things i see in her. After all GOD said, ” LOVE YOUR NEIGHBORS AS MUCH AS YOU LOVE YOURSELF” for we are all here to help each other and care for one another. 

And yesterday i talked to that person and i said sorry, i confessed everything i have been feeling towards her and i said “ i have come to the realization that maybe your love for me is just enduring and i just can’t love you back the way you love me” but now i want to love her the way i love myself and i said that i hope that our conversation will make a difference in our relationship. 

so if you are going through the same feeling, pray for that person and ask GOD to help you love others even in the worst situations :)

ps. WE ARE ALL LOVED BY GOD 

October 23, 8:56AM (3 weeks ago)

someone is in love with you

I have never been in a relationship, but somehow i saw a glimpse of how teenage love could be, through the relationships of my classmates. Of course, there were times they would run to me and just talk about how much this certain guy or girl makes them happy and in love. And sometimes they’ll run to me just to get some words of comfort because they are going through a heartbreak. LOVE  HAS BEEN A ROLLER COASTER RIDE FULL OF UPs AND DOWNS.

Sometimes a lot of my friends or just about anyone would ask me if ever i’ve had a boyfriend and i’d say i’ve never have. But that doesn’t mean that i am not in love, or i’ve never been in love, and doesn’t mean im missing out on LOVE. i AM NOT MISSING OUT BECAUSE SOMEONE IS IN LOVE WITH ME AND I AM VERY MUCH IN LOVE WITH HIM. And i’d like to fall in love furthermore. He is in love with you too. HE has the kind of love that will never let you down, a kind of love that will give true happiness. A love that can be defined asPERFECT.

HE loves us beyond our unfaithfulness, HE loves us so soo much that HE DIED  A CRIMINAL’S DEATH ON THE CROSS, so that you and i will be FREE , so that YOU and I will experience HIS GREATNESS.

I remember the times when i ran away, i turned my back from this LOVE for i didn’t understand it, but then LIFE without LOVE is a miserable life, HIS LOVE NEVER ABANDONED US WE’RE THE ONES WHO DO.

SO before you say no one loves you, LOOK UP AND JUST GAZE AT THE HEAVENS AND YOU’LL SEE THAT HE MADE IT ALL FOR YOU, HE MADE IT ALL FOR YOU BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU :) AND THEN YOU COULD LIVE LIFE WITH JOY AND LOVE. A LIFE SOLD OUT FOR HIS GLORY.

JESUS LOVES YOU.

October 22, 9:15AM (3 weeks ago)

beautiful in every single way

I’m not any extraordinary girl, who can turn eyes when she walks down the corridor, im not the type who can join beauty contest, in short, im not really that physically pretty. BUT THEN GOD SAID, HE CREATED ME AMAZINGLY AND WONDERFULLY :).

I used to cry about how im not that pretty enough. Kids mock me, and tell me how messy my hair is, or just about anything that proves that i am ugly. But no, i am not because i must not focus on what the people or the world see, for GOD sees the heart not the outside appearance. Some are so conscious about appearance, but they dont realize that beauty fades away, that beauty can’t last forever, but the soul lasts forever. SO we must be more conscious of how our hearts look like when GOD sees them. 

There were times that i was so lost, and i was doing the wrong things and i am so sure my heart looks so dirty, stained and just full of dark spots. But then he cleansed my heart through His blood. He washed my sins away. And He can do that to every heart. He can make everyone new. And then true beauty will be seen, TRUE BEAUTY SHINING OUT FOR GOD TO SEE .

Dont get me wrong its nice to get pretty and fashionable and presentable , but what matters most is the HEART. SURE God made us all pretty, only the world says someone or something is ugly. JUST THINK ABOUT THIS, IT WAS SAID IN THE BIBLE ” TURN YOUR EYES AWAY FROM ME FOR THEY MAKE ME MELT ” that was GOD telling us we are beautiful and  he is in love with us. (You can find that verse in song of songs )

every now and then let’s check our hearts.

maybe it has spots, or maybe its dark and dirty.

LET’S ASK HIM TO CLEANSE US AND START LIVING BY FAITH AND LOVE EVERYDAY OF OUR LIVES.

LIFE IS WONDERFUL MY FRIEND :)

ps. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY SINGLE WAY.

October 21, 6:23AM (3 weeks ago)

looking for unconditional love?

Hello my name is trisha. I’m a sixteen year old girl, a Filipino and a Christian. I grew up in church, my dad is a worship pastor, and pretty much everyone in our family is involved in church ministries. But then that doesn’t make me or my family perfect.

I love Jesus, i grew up memorizing bible verses, attending summer vacation bible schools, and sunday schools. Others would say , im holy or something, they would say i know a lot. But no, i wasn’t holy, i wasn’t knowledgeable of everything about the bible or about God. 

I was not exempted from temptation in any form or in any way. I was a human created by God. I MAKE MISTAKES. i was so far from being perfect and never will i get a bit near. i am a sinner just like everybody else.

They say that teenage life is the most critical stage of a person’s life. That’s where he/she learns about life, about pain, about love and just about anything, but not everything. For me teenage life was a blast yet i had so many downfalls, especially when it comes to my relationship with God. There were times i was on fire for Him, i didn’t know anything except Him, he was my life and He was everything. But then again there were times i was freezing cold, i was distracted, i was so far away from Him. And life without Him was a mess, life without Him is painful and unhappy.

I couldn’t remember how many times i sinned and how many times i asked for forgiveness. See, i was unfaithful. Often times i ran away from my savior, from my love, from my healer, and from my God. But then again He never left my side, always there to catch me and to heal my heart when it breaks. His love was so unconditional i couldn’t even describe it.

I am a bad bad person, did a lot of wrong, awful, and unpleasant things towards people and towards Him, yet He is still there ready to embrace me each time i need someone.

My prayer is that many people would come to know the greatest LOVER , the greatest GIFT, the greatest LOVE STORY. i wasn’t good or perfect but then here comes someone who loves me unconditionally and he knows me more than i know myself, who can beat that?? 

i know there would be times when i would still fall, yet i pray that in those times i’ll learn to look up to him and seek His hands and just hold on to it. Well, love like this could not be found in people, love like this only comes from GOD.

I was a typical teenager, doing thE wrong things at the wrong time. But someone found me at the right place at the right time.

what’s your story??

October 20, 3:08AM (3 weeks ago)

define your life.

I didn’t go to school, i slept and just enjoyed the comfort the bed could bring. Anyways, its been a boring week, but whenever i think about JESUS i smile:). I keep a journal where in every night, or just anytime of the day, i would write my prayer, i like writing that’s why i do that, and i read it all over again and again and just imagine how God could read my letters,it gives me happiness.

Anyways, its funny how many people make their lives look miserable, i dont know why but we are all different, maybe because some people have more sensitive more fragile hearts, they break easily. Let me tell you something, i use to be like that.

But then came a time where a true inspiration blocked out all the brokenness and just erase all the pain in my soul, and now life to me looks hard but i feel happy. Some people blame their parents, school, boyfriend/girlfriend, trials and just everything we could point our finger to, but that’s not it. The way we define and view life is the way we gonna live it. If you see your life like “hell” definitely you live miserably, but if you just focus your eyes on the brighter side of life and view your life as a blessing, even though its hard you will wake up with a smile printed on your face. 

Life is one of the greatest gift i ever had, my life yesterday, my life today and life tomorrow, everyday is another life, a brand new start. So instead of putting all the emo music on and blame the heart break , go and put a happy song and learn to forget the pain. I know it could be soooo sooo hard but the reward is great. BE HAPPY.

There’s a season for everything, a season of sadness and happiness. But you must look forward to the happy one, and overcome the sad one.  

October 7, 4:46AM (1 month ago)

never gonna give up :))

I am so happy that i am blessed with peace of mind right now. Normally when problems like these strike me, i would cry over why God is letting this happen to us, but now i learned to just surrender and trust everything he has prepared for me. SOmetimes i think im super over confident and maybe that’s not good, but i really dont know why im just peaceful right now. Maybe its because i started trusting my lover, and just believing that all he has for me is good. Whatever happens later, tomorrow or in the coming days, i aint gonna give up my faith in Him. For he has shown me how loved i am, how special and how immediate his response could be in times of help. I know why im still going through this, because he prepared the best way to deliver his blessings upon me. He has carefully planned it all out, and after all His name will be praised, for he is good.

I trust him more today than yesterday and everyday i trust more, i love more, and i continue to surrender. For he said in his words that he has plans for me to make me successful and all he has for me is good. I thank you Lord for being there always for me, in times of despair, sadness, boredom, heart break, and rough times, its you that i hold on to, and look up to. Whenever sadness strikes so hard, i look up at the heavens and say, i am not giving up, for he has given me INCREDIBLE strength, for he has created me to SUCCEED and not to fail.

and all i could do is to thank him with my life and songs of praises.

October 7, 4:27AM (1 month ago)

an so they said that tumblr might be gone FOREVER so to save my text posts from their im gonna copy it here, one by one

I WANT TO BE SUPERMAN

OH how much i long to sleep all day long. Its been so crazy, everything's exhausting when it comes to school, i will be having periodical test on analytical geometry in 2 and a half hours, and here i am writing myself out. I should be preparing to go to school by now, but i felt the sudden need to let out my thoughts. Because at school, i can only find two distant persons from my heart that would really listen when i talk about all my nonsense, joy, fantasies, song, and everything under my sun, its ANGELA AND PIA, hooray! But its sad to think that i cant talk to my "friends" the way i talk to angela and pia, to make it clear i am not close to angela and pia, but its just that they are willing to listen all the time.

I figured out that i dont want to be superman, because i already am, i am someone super. I AM SUPER TRISH!
what ever! i need to end this now, i need to go get a shower. awwww :(

THIS TIME, i WONT PRETEND.

Dear you,

Do you even have the slightest idea how much i miss what used to be us? Because everyday i see you, i see you throwing smiles and im not the one who's supposed to catch it , before it used to be me. I spent every bit of my junior life with you,even thought about how bad it would be if we wont go to college together. I wrote down songs for you, you didn't even know. But don't get the wrong idea, i dont miss you. I suggest that you must not miss me too, for it will be too hard for me, it will be just difficult to cope up. i thought i knew you as much as you knew me.